My Life in Words

“Some dreams are meant to be fought for…”

This quote, I made it, and it currently stuck in my mind now. You know what, lately I love to make quotes, and I love to quote what other people said. I just feel that some quotes are meant to be there, you know, like it happened to give you power when you’re weak, to make you believe when you lose faith.


And quotes are very varied. Some can be found in a very sweet and constructive style, some may sound impossible, some may sound simple. But there are some that sound really sarcastic and synistic. But if you really read it, put it on your mind, give your heart a chance to digest the words, whatever the style, somehow they just give you this weird good feeling that you wanna read it over and over again.

That’s what I would say the power of words. I mean the way words can influence people. You may find it like it’s so you. And behind it, there lots and lots more stories, like the lyrics of Vitamin C in their Graduation song “the memories are playing like film without sound…”, that these stories, the memories, they coming back. Whether the good ones, they give you joy and happiness to keep you going on and finally reach those happy ending; or the bad ones, they give you hatred, sadness, pain, that you don’t want it to be happening again, and it gives you power so that you can and will overcome all situations you’re gonna be in so you won’t be like what you were in that bad memories.

But these memories, I had them in my mind just right now, and I don’t know how I should feel about it. Well, these are about some close friends I had. I’ve been living for 18 years, and feel that I have gone through this so harsh life full of separation with so many good friends. Yea I know there’s a saying that says “dimana ada pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan”. And I have this one thought, that if my lost friends and I really were re-united again, we won’t be able to maintain our current life stabil. I know it may sound very ridiculous and rude, but what I mean is I don’t know what kind of life they are living, or what obstacles they have been through, and how they would feel towards me. I know one thing for sure though, that we are not the same anymore. I just feel I want to go back to the past, I wanna go back to those moments, how we really were, how we really spent times together, but not coming through it once again in the future, cus I know that won’t be the same. We had our own life already, things are not the same anymore. My rude mind keeps telling that it won’t be felt like those moments we had back then.

And that’s what I’ve been thinking about lately. These thoughts have come up over and over again, those memories, things that I had been through with them. And I realized how much I really want to go back to the past, that this willing has revolved into dream, and so I show up with this quote above, “some dreams are meant to be fought for…” and the dots afterwards are not for adding dramatic effect, it’s there because I feel like it’s not finished yet. For just once, I want myself to be spiritful like what I am in the quote, but then it hits me, that this dream, the dream that I had in my mind about those lost friends, I know that no matter how hard I try to make it come true, it just won’t. Cus I know I won’t be able to turn back time, no one can. And by that, I know how I should end my quote, “…but some others are just meant to be kept in mind forever.”

And it affects me just now. The former thing I uttered about the power the words can give, it really happening to me. Just now. That I know we must go on with our life. We can’t keep looking back, cus we have a life to live. Well, some time, we can turn our head back to those moments, but it has to be just a glimpse. Because we can’t live back then. Time turns forward, not the opposite. That’s what I say the management of memories, and that’s what’s important. I manage myself with my memories with my lost friends back then. I thought about our good times when I got stuck and felt like not gonna make it, and just in a sudden, poof… it built my mood back.

We always have positivity behind everything. Even the saddest, most painful, most annoying one, if you can look at the brightest side of it, you’ll get its good point. And if we manage ourselves well with the bad things, how come we cannot make it with the good ones?

Now I know…

“Some dreams are meant to be fought for, but some others are just meant to be kept in mind forever.”

Go ahead and get a life!

Ichsan.